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I give false promises. Always. I'm so so sorry. It's been such a tough time for me. Last weekend I spent in the hospital, waking up...

I give false promises. Always. I'm so so sorry. It's been such a tough time for me. Last weekend I spent in the hospital, waking up covered in blood, meeting endless number of doctors, crying and trying to work out what's wrong with me.  I was so shocked and scared my mom had to take me home. I still have no clue what's going on with my body, but all the hormonal changes, all the pain I've been through really affected my mood and perception of life. I kinda don't feel like writing, working or doing anything anymore. However next day I got out the hospital I started working again. I popped up at the meeting I almost canceled and caught everybody by surprise. Well, I'm quite a workaholic. And guess if I won't keep myself busy I'd experience depression at its worst. Lets skip the fact that I look yellow at all the pictures that were taken during that meeting. Sometimes even makeup can't help. But I better work than stay home trapped with my thoughts.
People were texting me asking if i'm fine. Those of you who follow me on snapchat and saw my snaps from hospital messaged me and I was so thankful to all the love and support I get from you guys. However some people were quite sarcastic talking to me lately pointing out that I attend some events and look fresh. Surprisingly such comments were made by some of my close friends who know everything. God, if you don't see the background of pictures I choose to post then don't comment on them. Moreover if you actually know what i'm going through then don't even talk about those things to me. This really affects me and you can tell that recently I decided to take a break from Instagram and social media in general. But it feels like I'm in a good state and I'm ready to start over.
Let me share the second part of my shooting for ASOS. All pictures are taken by Elena Somina and Anton Elantsev. I'm so in love with this shooting. If you still haven't seen my interview then check it out out here - http://www.asos.com/ru/women/fashion-news/2016_07_21-thu/style-files-anastasia/ :)

Я не умею сдерживать обещания. Столько вам говорила про то, что буду больше писать и выкладывать, и опять облажалась. У меня очень тяжелый период в жизни. И мне надо время. Все прошлые выходные я провела в больнице. И даже не хочется говорить об этом, но мне кажется, что вы должны знать, почему я пропала со всех радаров. Сразу после того, как мама забрала меня из больницы, я начала работать, чтобы отвлечься. И давайте закроем глаза на то, что на встречи я приходила как труп, а на фото получалась желтого цвета. Но кажется, что если бы не работа, то я бы просто впала в депрессию.
Спасибо всем, кто писал мне и поддерживал меня. Не знаю, что бы я делала без вас. Вы у меня замечательные. Хотя были и те, кто поставили под сомнения моё самочувствие, заметив, что я хожу на мероприятия и работаю всю последнюю неделю. Прошу вас, не спешите судить, не зная, что именно стоит за фотографией, которую я выкладываю в соц.сети. Все то, что вы видите онлайн - 1% моей реальной жизни. Все намного сложнее чем выбеленные фотографии в инстаграмме. Собственно говоря, поэтому я и забросила инстаграм на некоторое время. Но кажется, что сейчас самое время вернуться.
А пока что делюсь с вами второй частью съемки для ASOS. Фотографами выступили мои любимые Елена Сомина и Антон Еланцев. Если вы еще не видели моё интервью для ASOS , то немедленно его прочтите - http://www.asos.com/ru/women/fashion-news/2016_07_21-thu/style-files-anastasia/ :)








Take care lovelies!

Love you,
your Anastasia 

xoxo

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  1. I think like I said everything, but then again I have to say it one more time - I am so proud to call you my friend and my sister! You are one strong lady who I really admire so much. These days, we can understand each other even more, because of all that is happened to both, and you know what, you inspired me the other day when you said like I have to work, no stopping. And, that message from you, those words gave me strentgh. I am blessed that our paths are crossed! Love you beauty!

    xo

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  2. I think like I said everything, but then again I have to say it one more time - I am so proud to call you my friend and my sister! You are one strong lady who I really admire so much. These days, we can understand each other even more, because of all that is happened to both, and you know what, you inspired me the other day when you said like I have to work, no stopping. And, that message from you, those words gave me strentgh. I am blessed that our paths are crossed! Love you beauty!

    xo

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  3. Oh my! You look sooo stunning in every photo. Love everything about this post! <3

    Hugs & kisses

    xoxo

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